wow, blogs. I remember when I wrote on these things, like anyone actually read them and was interested in my life. Well I graduated from college and now I'm working as a manager/server halfbreed in DC while waiting for my CD to be produced. Isn't that exciting? I think facebook and myspace have definitely overwritten anything that blogs did when I was back in highschool- too bad really, I like the way this blog looks. Good times.

-Lara

hey guys, just fyi that i'm gonna be using Xanga for a while because Christina is obsessed with it and doesn't want me writing in my blog when i could be using Xanga. SO, here's the address if you wanna keep up...

-Lara

(PS, it's cooler cuz it plays music)

good job Aimee!! Thanks again for the idea ;)


On a side note, this weather! Funny how i thought nice weather would cheer me up but now when it's here, it makes me think of things that I haven't had to deal with because i associate them with good weather. I'm not gonna go into detail but it's really kind of messing with me. Yay for sun, bad for memories that i haven't really come to terms with yet.

-Lara

dammit my entry was just fricken erased. Okay, to sum it up- 39 days before I'm home. Fuck.

-Lara

not including today, 39 days left of school. Carmina Burana and Vocal Jazz concerts in 2 weeks. Lots and lots of shit...always. I've decided that it's no use being upset about the fact that i can't be home, i'll just have to live with it. I'll just put my head down and BURY myself in work. Yay! My music is depressing me tho, like Garden State...it's not supposed to depress me! Ill just listen to the new Ben Folds stuff, courtesy of Anthony, who is (no suprise to anyone i'm sure) the best person in the whole wide world, ever.

I wonder how many people I've said that about....

anyway, sleeping seems to be the best thing to do for the next 6 weeks, so maybe i'll go do that!

-Lara

Props to Kim for getting "Video" and "I Don't Know What It Is" :)

Can i just say, i want this month to be over now.

I want to go home for the summer nowwwwwwwwwwww.

Playing a game with my parents, Christina, Pam and John was the coolest thing that has happened to me in so long, why did i have to leave again?

So, let me reiterate the fact that i want to go home. Home nowwwwwww. I'm sitting in my room not doing anything, and i haven't done anything but sit on the computer and watch a movie since 4. that's 7 hours. That's semi-scary. I need to go out and do stuff, but i don't feel like it when i'm here. I think it's cuz my room is so messy, maybe i should go clean it. But that takes effort that i don't have. Oh well, i'll go work on my homework now, especially since i should be going to bed in 40 minutes anyway. I don't want to go to bed. How come everyone else is on spring break and not me. I can't wait to go home and see everybody! I'm leaving at 6 sharp on thursday, and i'll be around all friday saturday and part of sunday before i have to go back. Yippee!!!!

-Lara

PS happy bday Gavi...he's officially 6. (or 21, if you ask him...we differ in opinion)

since i don't feel like writing things about my life because that would be wayyyy too much to put down right now, so i'm gonna do the song game again...here goes

1) "the best things in afterlife are free"

2) "squatting bare assed on the ground eating rice from a bowl, with a towel on their head and maybe a bone in their nose"

3) "sometimes the whole wide world demands her, even the people who can't stand her- everybody loves jill"

4) "i can't wait till the future gets here"

5) "she's so demure that it's no surprise, when i tell her i love her she just closes her eyes"

6) "hate to love and love to hate her, like a broken record player"

7) "there's a world inside a world that's not okay, oh just stop"

8) "who knows what all these new drugs do- i guess to have no more fears, but still i always end up in tears"

9) "And with all you got in ya boys, dig up Virginia boys"

10) "They say life is just an instant, just a bubble in a glass- i say who told you that bullshit and you can kiss my ass"

11) "Looks like trouble on a rainy day"

12) "He sees through the fence and he thinks i'm free- my brain and his chain look the same to me"

13) "now that i have found someone I'm feeling more alone than i ever have before"

14) "went to school and i was very nervous, no one knew me no one knew me, hello teacher tell me what's my lesson, look right through me"

15) "do you believe we are all inately good, do you think that you would love me till tomorrow if you could"

16) "I don't know what it is, but you gotta do it- i don't know where to go, but you gotta be there- i don't know where to fall, but i know that it's comfortable there, i don't know where it is"

17) "Alice the world is full of ugly things that you can't change- pretend it's not that way, that's my idea of faith"

(did i already have that one last time?)



I got bored...maybe we'll just do 17 for now

I wanna go hoooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooommmmmmmmmeeeeeeeeeeeee

I am never ever going to have a boyfriend. Every boy in the universe is just going to get married and I'm going to die old and alone with 30 cats and a fish named Filbert.