I'm really worried about my voice. It does this WEIRD thing when I don't give my full attention to supporting it. I mean, it doesn't happen all the time but it happens and I don't know why. It sounds like air is escaping from my vocal chords, like I have a HOLE in them or something! Myra heard it today, she said she doesn't know what it is but it doesn't sound like I have anything wrong with my vocal chords. Now I'm not allowed to sing or talk in the car, and I can never sing unsupported. I also have to vocalize 15 minutes 3 times a day. Haha it sounds like i'm taking pills or something- "don't walk on it without crutches and take this pills with food 3 times a day, you should be fine"....I'm just worried because auditions for the shows are on the 24th. Oh well, I'm sure it will work out. Now I must go back to cleaning my room because Christina is coming over and i'll be distracted. Do you see a trend here?! 21 more days till college, and i'll be at the beach from the 9th to the 16th so get your reservation to see me before I leave asap!! :) I really do want to see you all before I leave. Okay, more news later

-Lara

So I'm just a little slow- Jess invited me over to HER house last night, she wasn't coming over here! Needless to say that didn't work out ;). Okay gotta clean the room now. CONTINUE cleaning the room

-Lara

How bad is it that I've never even kissed a guy, but my friend who is one year older than me just got married. ..... ............. ................................?!?! GAH what's wrong with me?! Okay okay, i'm not gonna go crazy over it, it's just weird. And everyone there had a boyfriend/girlfriend. Ehem. Oh well, COLLEGE baby. I saw Elizabeth Gibson there! She knew the groom, I knew the bride- funny how, yea? SMALL world. And Jess Hollies just IMed me and asked if she could come over. So she's coming over. Iiiiiinteresting. I'm so tired. I wonder how long I'll last. I got this REALLY pretty dress for the wedding. It's purple and gold. And Christina did my hair, it looked really pretty! Straightened with I think 6 curls around my head. Purty stuff. Hahaha one of the guys there had come to see Hello Dolly. It was SO funny, my friend Katie says "so how did Hello Dolly go?" And he says "OMG YOU WERE DOLLY!!!" I was like..." yeeeaaa, why-did you see it?"Apparently he saw it the LAST night (best night by faaaaaaaar) and completely loved it. He was a cutie. Gay, but a cutie (haha ;) Darnell- I love this wedding, I wanna get married on a beach....but there aren't any beaches in Vermont now are there). He was SO funny! Okay I gotta go now, gotta be semi-presentable for Jessica.

-Lara

Do you know why i'm up this early? Christina came into my house and jumped on my bed. . . . . .

Attempting to clean my room :) I think it just MIGHT be working. Christina's coming over later so I won't get any work done then. I have to start thinking of monologues/songs to do for my auditions for Ithaca!!!!! I'm SO excited! And Adam will be here on the 8th- so any of you who feel like randomly dropping in and seeing him, you can if you want. Although I don't think we'll be at the house. Oh well, your choice. I've gotta go clean my rooooom

-Lara

ahhh Freedom. Anyways, I've been thinking, about this blunt truth quiz and stuff, and I realize that I don't need it to tell me what I already know. And what I already know some people think of me. It has made me realize that I am never going to be able to please everyone, and make everyone think I'm a doll, so when all else fails I should just make sure I think I'm a good person...then people will follow suit. When I look around me I see that I have friends, good ones, that stick up for me and fight for me and help me when I need it. I also see that I do the same for my friends. I do believe this makes me a good person. Maybe I'm not the ideal weight, although I do think that I'm getting there, I look better now than I ever have, and maybe I am a little conceited. Isn't everyone? I think I have a right to be. But the fact is that I'm a good person. People care about me, and I care about people. Should there have to be any more than that? I don't think there needs to be. So yea, this might sound corny but it's actually a grand breakthrough for me, and I'm very proud of myself for it. If any of you think that I'm a horrible person.....well.....I'm sorry you think that- but it's not my problem. I think that anyone I respect enough to care about their opinion thinks I'm a great person too, and has taken the time to get to know me. Therefore, if you think I'm a horrible person, maybe you should get to know me.

Oh yea, and have you ever heard of the law of attraction? Haha, this is a good one. Like attracts like. So if you think I'm a horrible person...and you hang around me....why don't you CHECK yourself! :) because i betcha the same thing you don't like in me can be found in you somewhere. Whatcha! I like that one.

One more thing. I love forgiveness. Forgiveness is one of the greatest weapons you can equip yourself with. If you forgive someone, what more can they do to you? They are helpless, because they don't get to you. They don't get the rise that they wanted. So I forgive you for thinking that I'm a horrible person, because I know that i'm not. I also forgive every one of you for anything that you have ever done to me, because that's in the past and this is now. There is no use holding grudges against things that have already happened, because it's not like you can do anything about them. We are all in this together, so why pit yourself against another when you've got other things to worry about? That's what I think anyway, take it as you will.

Thank you all for caring about me, and if you don't care about me....then....you've got problems ;)

-Lara

Thanks Christina...

yea we had a fun time last night, I fell asleep really early, she tried to keep me awake by whining at me. We tried to look up this bug on the internet that we saw in Pam's car 2 days ago. It was floaty, didn't look like it was alive, but it definitely was. It was zebra striped. Christina and Pam both flipped the hell out when they saw it, but I thought it was cute. Pam batted it out of the car, but then somehow it got back in...we have no idea where it went after that. It's probly still in her car somewhere. I've never seen anything like it! Anyways, dude, 2 weeks till the beach! And 3 weeks till move in! I can't believe I'm going to be leaving this place...not that i'm sad mind you. I talked to Mrs. Saladyga on the phone yesterday, she gave me the dates of the shows for RM, they're already marked on my calander and I'll be coming back to see as many nights as I POSSIBLY can. And if I can come both weekends, I will come both weekends. For every show. I love me my Black Maskers

-Lara

hello.
Im in laras blog. Who dat be?? MEEEEE!!! C-H-R-I-S-
T-I-N-A!!! what am I excited for??? ah yes
the beach!
DUCK NC HERE WE COME, in MY 94 Ford Escort!!! we as in Pam Lara And I !!!
Yes, The ASIAN is Driving!!! Watchout vacationers I'm On the ROAD!!!
sike, I looooovve driving! And Im a good driver. but I do admit, I do yell and scream profanity at the other asian drivers bc it is true. Many of us do drive extremly slow in the left lane. thats bc asian people take time to do everything, they don't need to rush. WE chizzill like dat! DONE!
Well right now Im spendin the night at laras. and so its like 2 so I think Im gonna go to sleep! LATER!

Ahh, you know how much I LOATH fake people? How much I despise when people pretend to be nice, but don't really mean it? I bet you know who I'm talking about, and I bet you know if it's you. Well, I don't give a shit anymore because COLLEGE baby, where people speak their mind and don't backstab and stupid shit like that. So fuck you and you and you because I've got so much better, SO much better, I don't have to deal with that shit any more. THANK YOU SO MUCH. God I don't know why I ever dealt with that shit in the first place, SO not worth my time.

-Lara

If you guys wanna check out the results to my poll, just go here . Ya know, I did expect some of these, but who thinks I'm not honest?! I mean I swear, have I ever told a lie to anyone? Honesty is always the best. But ooookay, if you guys think so. Oh, and...I use people!? Ha, name one. But that's fine, I'm not angry, I find it interesting. Thank you to all who took it and spoke their mind. :)

-Lara